If I start to dwell on this too long, I start to think about the what-if's, and it starts to fuck me up.
What if they had gotten to some staffers, some Reps or Senators, family members, etc? How many more would have been tortured or killed? What horrors would we have been forced to watch on television? Arguably, we were this fucking close to experiencing the 2nd worse thing we have ever inflicted upon ourselves since the Civil War.
Thank God it's snowing outside right now, and I'm sitting in my living room, watching it. Charlie Brown Christmas music is on in the background, because why the fuck not. Wife and I just made bacon, eggs and waffles for my daughter and her friends. Who stayed up all night for a sleepover. Daughter knocked her Bat Mitzvah out of the park yesterday. The boy is still asleep,, he may wake up before sundown.. I'm lucky, I'm blessed. Goddammit, I love this country, but I'm far from at ease right now.